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Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Where Do I Belong?

I know I haven't been around much lately. I have been taking a little break, focusing on my family...and just waiting for God to lay something on my heart. Well, He definitely did and it is raw and personal for me. I hope that it speaks to your heart...



Where are you from? The question stares back at me every time I log into my Facebook account. It is a simple enough question for most, but I honestly don't know how to answer it. My parents are both originally from Zanesville, Ohio. My dad joined the air force after they were married and I was born in Fairbanks, Alaska. My family moved to Michigan before I was two. At age six, we moved again to Colorado Springs so that my dad could attend a bible college after feeling called into the ministry. We lived there for only a few months, then moved to Ohio because my maternal grandmother had cancer. That was my 1st grade year and I attended three different schools, in three different states.

From that point on, I was a Pastor's kid and we moved multiple more times within Ohio - I never attended the same school two years in a row all through elementary school. I settled into my second year at the same middle school, only to find out we would be moving again - in the middle of 7th grade. I finished junior high, and thankfully attended the same school all four years of high school. My parents didn't move again until I was nineteen - about eight months before my Wedding.

Hopefully, you now understand my predicament. Facebook tells me that I need to complete my profile - but I honestly don't know where I'm from. Ask me where I was born or where I graduated from high school, those I can easily answer. Facebook now even suggests my friends' hometowns to me. It is a familiar feeling that has followed me most of my life. I don't have "the house that built me" or a best friend since kindergarten. I don't remember the old pharmacy downtown or the fire that burnt down the school.

I had a wonderful fantasy of a childhood. Truthfully, I did. We had beautiful family traditions and were a close knit group. My family was everything to me. My siblings were my best friends. I had a childhood full of love, laughter and joy - full of no-bake cookies, loud music, family devotions and spontaneous trips to swim in the creek. We have the home videos to prove it. There is only one thing that I never had - a hometown. I don't think I missed out on some developmentally crucial part of childhood - but I have recently realized that I have spent most of my life trying desperately to find where I belong. I am a people-pleaser, and this desire to please others - never saying no, always weighing my words - comes from a place a deep within. A place that wants to belong. Wanting to be known by others and people to want to know me. I was blessed with a loving and family, and yet the enemy found a small crack in my life that he used to gain entry. Maybe you have felt rejected by family or friends. Maybe you were neglected or abused. All of these things cause us to seek approval from others. Sometimes this manifests as people-pleasing, sometimes as bullying, other times by being a victim.

In it's nature, it is pure self. It is superficial. Needing the approval of others to feel like I have worth and value. If I say the rights things, appear the right way, give them what they want - then I will be accepted into their group...then, I will belong. I have experienced dysfunctional friendships and been taken advantage of because of this desire in my life. Because I had wonderful parents, they taught me to value myself enough not to get into trouble or compromise myself in any way. As an mother, I have found a sense of belonging that I had never felt before - these children love me in spite of my weaknesses, they want to know me and desire to be with me. And yet, I still wanted to appear like I have it all together to others...ultimately because I want their approval. I don't speak up when I should - and have ended up hurt and wounded myself, because I don't want to hurt anyone else. I think, if I just do everything right (remember that perfectionism post a while back?), then I will belong. And there is the problem. The idea of doing.

The enemy has long marinated this desire in me. That constant voice in my head. Over-analyzing every word I speak, assuming that everyone else must think of me...what I think of me. And it can be pretty ugly, friends. But it is a lie. And it is sinful. I have been given the gift of adoption into a body of saints. My hometown is the Kingdom of God. I do belong - I belong to Jesus. I am a daughter of the Most High King! He has called me chosen, beloved, beautiful, worthy. He says I am enough - and there is nothing I need to do, nor could I do, to deserve the love and grace He has lavished upon this longing child.

"I must painfully acknowledge that I still operate out of a fear-based center. I have been speechless in situations of fragrant injustice. While the imposter has performed superbly, I have assumed a passive role in relationships, stifled creative thinking, denied my real feelings, allowed myself to be intimidated by others, and then rationalized my behavior by persuading myself that the Lord wants me to be an instrument of peace...At what price?"- Brennan Manning, Abba's Child

What if we truly stopped trying to be accepted by anyone or anything else - and claimed our inheritance as sons and daughters? And rejoiced in the beauty of God's creation - ourselves! When you believe that you are worthless, stupid, unlovable, ugly...you believe that about God's creation. He is a masterful artist who formed each unique part of you. Created in His very image! How could that ever be anything but wonderful? It couldn't be, and yet we allow the enemy to feed our hungry souls with the taste of approval. Say 'yes' too much, over-commit, busy ourselves, be everything to everyone...and there will be no time or space left for Jesus. And we have filled the longing with 'do' instead of 'be'. If we truly want to belong, we must stop trying to 'do' for others, and 'be' His.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Does Your Homeschool Need A Fresh Start?

Today, I am sharing some ideas on how to start fresh this new year in your homeschool on FreeHomeschoolDeals. You will also find a FREE 2014 Goals chart printable


I don’t know about you…but my school year has not turned out the way I planned....
I am in desperate need of a fresh start. I have spent far too many mornings sleeping in later than I should. I have spent far too many days rushing through school so that I can run errands or finish up some project I am working on. I have spent far too many afternoons loading the dishwasher instead of creating science experiments or instead of curled up on the couch engrossed in a magical story.
Read the rest, and print the FREE Goals chart here



Tuesday, December 17, 2013

4 DIY Christmas Crafts

Today, I am sharing 4 DIY Christmas crafts over at Frugal Homeschool Family as part of the 25 Frugal Days of Christmas...



To find out how to make these crafts, click here



Monday, December 2, 2013

Host a Pinterest Party

Christmas is the perfect time to host a Pinterest party! Last year my mom and I put one together, and let me tell you - it was a blast! In reality, it was super relaxing and enjoyable. Four hours of fellowship, food and crafting - what more could a girl want? ;) We made recipes we found on pinterest, and each guest brought one craft to share with the group. We provided hot glue guns, scissors, ribbon and glitter snow paint - plus bags to take our crafts home. 



Our bags said "Saw it. Pinned it. Did it." - a Pinterest idea ;)


The yummy food...


My mom's famous punch - not from Pinterest :)



Chocolate Dipped Oreos & Peppermint Cookies




Chips & Salsa Bar






Our crafting gear


The ladies crafting away :)









Hope you enjoy! Merry Pinning :) 

Have you been to/hosted a Pinterest party?


Tuesday, November 26, 2013

24 Days of Christmas {Free Printables}

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Last year I started a new Christmas tradition with my children. I created a list of 24 activities that we would accomplish during December - one for each day leading up to Christmas - a part of our Advent celebration. I am going to share my list with you and you will also find some FREE printables - you can either use my list or print the blank cards and create your own - you can even mix and match! 




24 Days of Christmas

1-           Write Christmas Wish List
2-         Color a Christmas Picture
3-         Make Christmas Tree Ornaments

     4-       Sort through toys to donate

5-         Hot Chocolate &  Watch Christmas Movie
6-         Play with sensory Snow
 

7-          String Popcorn for Tree
8-         Hang some Mistletoe

9-         Listen to Favorite Christmas Music
10-  Make Peppermint Playdough
11-    Visit Nursing Home
12- Decorate Gingerbread Houses

13-  Put on a Play for Mommy & Daddy

14-           Drive & Look at Christmas Lights

15-   Play a Family Game

16-  Go Christmas Caroling
17-   Go on a walk in Bethlehem (*local attraction*)

18-  Make a Birthday Cake for Jesus
19-  Act out the story of Jesus
20-          Make Christmas Cookies with Grandma

21-   Buy Present for Siblings
22-           Watch Christmas Movie
23-           Christmas Program at Church

      24-         Read the Nativity Story


You can download the FREE Printable Cards here



You can download the FREE Printable BLANK Cards here



Hope you enjoy! What are some of your favorite Christmas activities?

Monday, November 25, 2013

Teaching A Giving Spirit

Today I am sharing my first post as a contributor at FreeHomeschoolDeals.com


I watch in slow motion as the eyes widen and the lips forcefully come together. “MMMMIIIINNNEEE!” I hear as the little form of a toddler hurls itself toward the unsuspecting sibling. The sibling quickly registers what is going on and clings to the toy phone, pushing the toddler away. But, not to be deterred, the toddler goes in for the big finale – mouth open and teeth slide across skin, beginning to clench down…I reach them just in time to pull the sibling away from the toddler’s eminent bite.
We are born with it – that sin nature, that desire for self. A giving, selfless, servant’s heart – well, those things don’t come so naturally...
To read the rest of this post, click here 

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

FREE Printable Thanksgiving Placemat



I have created a FREE printable Thanksgiving placemat for you! You can personalize these placemats by adding your own little turkey's photo! You can print as an 8x10 (on letter size paper) or use the 8x14 size for a larger placemat (on legal size paper).








Blessings!



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